By his grace time has been allotted for specific tasks. These are windows of opportunity. Windows to speak. Windows to repair. Windows to forgive. Eventually, the shutters will close. Time will end.
I have been waiting for words. In my mind, I have practice my responses. I have rehearsed my conversation. But I know there will be only silence. My Lord holds me as I grieve, while He confirms what I already know. There will be no words.
Daily I battle and continue to pray that maybe this will be. I mentioned to the Lord the advantages. The freedom from guilt, from shame, from sorrow. He agrees and then confirms what I already know. There will be no words.
I pray for courage. I pray for honesty. I constantly pray for maybe there will be a miracle...But time passes...and the light through the window keeps dimming.
My waiting is ending. My Lord has given mercy, to spare me from sorrow upon sorrow; Philippians 2:27. My heart breaks. My eyes fill with tears. I pray that if ever there is regret, that it will be known that I love much because I have been forgiven much; Luke 7:36-50.
The window is now closing. Time is ending...
Copyright 12/2011
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