In the beginning, it consumed me. Daily my attention was diverted to this
matter. My solution was to go before the
Lord. There, I would open my heart, explained
my case, review all details and examine my motives. I would beg, and then; I would wait.
The Lord brought about new challenges. Unique projects and activities which made me
grow and change. They made my life
enjoyable and gave it purpose. All was
monopolized by the new and when I went to the Lord, I would open my heart and
tell him all about my new priorities. But once in a while as an afterthought, I
would remind him by opening my heart, explaining my case, sharing all details,
ask him to consider my motives and then, I would wait.
Life brought new faces, new locations and dreams. I was driven and determined to pursue God’s
goals. I would go to him excited about
his plans enjoying with delight in knowing that this was his will. I would share my heart and as afterthought, I
would remind him, explain my case, share all details, ask him to consider my
motives and then, I would wait.
Activities continued fascinating and encouraging at all
the times. The day I entered the room I greeted, smiled, chatted enjoying life. I
turned unexpectedly and there it was: “My afterthought”. I stood in awe for it did not come in the
wind, nor in the earthquake, nor in the fire, there was just a whisper: “your answer”. (1Kings 19:11-13)
Looking back analyzing my prayer, he considered my heart, reviewed my case,
examined all details and evaluated my motives and then he chose to give. I am reminded of Matthew 7:11. Somewhere in me, I still think that maybe I
did not fully believe he would grant me this petition for I knew I did not
deserve it, but then again my God is gracious and kind. I smile wholeheartedly waiting to see what He
would do next. And then when it’s time I
will share it…
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