At the gate

My heart was healed.  My sins forgiven and I have grown confident.  If the Lord is with me who can be against me? Romans 8:31 That which I learned I shared willingly, and my Lord has brought encouragement to those around me.  I had been living large.  I had been lavishing in an abundant life.  I reviewed all opportunities and with determination I set path for where I long to enter.   I was now ready. 

There I stood at the gate while watching the angel with sword in hand, protecting its entrance.  Eden: the place where I disobeyed my Lord; where I chose sin; where I failed him.  As I approach the gate, I felt the prickling.  I was bleeding again.  I looked to see my wounds begin to reopen.   It did not matter for Eden was familiar.  I knew its streets and people.  Maybe this time I would get it right.

I thought of Adam.  Maybe he like me longed for the recognizable.  Maybe, he came back to the entrance when life was difficult like when Cain murder Abel.  Maybe like me he thought, If only I could get a second chance, I promise Lord, I would do better.

The Lord spoke softly and kindly saying: Why are you bleeding again?  When I looked down the reopen wounds were now scars.  I began to reason with him as to my motivation to return.  I knew the Lord will not remove the angel at the gate.  I will not walk through the gate again.  For if I did temptation would be too great.  I might end up eating from the tree of life and living permanently in my sinful state.  My Lord was protecting me from self-destruction, from myself. 

Hand in hand, I walked away from Eden without looking back.  Restored, healed and comforted in knowing my Lord knew me best.  Genesis 3

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