Relaxing...

I had reached the end of another week.  Trying to relax I mediated on my life’s journey.  Questions kept coming to mind; what happened to my dreams and goals?  When did I stop trying?  Why had my resolve waiver?  There are so many culprits… the storm, my fallen Jerusalem, the scars left by battle, my lack of willingness.  All are contributors to my current state, however, I believe the Lord when he says; “all things work together for good” (Romans:8:28) and believe me, they have.

My life is not how I planned it.  I no longer have the career, live in the city. nor own the home that I dreamed of.  “And I… could not be more grateful.” Since he who knows me from the womb (Jeremiah 1:5) my Lord decided not to grant my desires.   However, He did something better.  He gave me His.  My Lord granted me His dreams and His purpose.  He who knows my heart and mind (Psalm 7:9) and has determined to provide the blessing of allowing me to know and do His will. 

Looking back, the storm left me with more confidence in Him.  My fallen Jerusalem led to my constant reliance in Him and my scars from battle (written in Spanish: Tentación), created in me an awareness of my total need of Him.  So, all is well.  I have learned that He needs to increase and I to decrease.  

Therefore, I do not miss my dreams, because His are better.  I do not long for forgotten goals for they would not bring real satisfaction.  In him, I have found the strength and willingness to continually pursuing his dreams.  You may ask why?  Because His ways are better! They are marvelous, magnificent, grandiose… And I am so bless!