...But there is only silence

I petition.  I beg.  I plead. I even bargain.  ...But there is only silence.  My heart breaks.  My anguish increases.  My affliction has no confinement...But there is only silence.  I ask for purpose.  I ask for timing.  I ask continually...But there is only silence. 

There is only one certainty.  He’s holding on to me.  As my heart continues to grief and the sorrow increases, He sustains me.  Most days I can’t see past my tears.  My thinking is blurred.  The weight of sorrow succumb me as I hold on tightly.  The clouds darken.  The waters rise and I feel the wind closer as I embrace my anchor.  Sometimes the waters reached me.  I am overwhelmed and as I look up He is there holding on to me.   ...But there is only silence.

The storm passes.  The water levels.  The sun rays reach me as He holds me.  But there is only silence...The next storm will come and I am certain  that yet again He will continue to hold me.  ...But for now, there is only silence...

Copyright 01/2012