Dependence...

From childhood I aspired toward self-reliance, self-sufficiency and sovereignty.  My quest in life was autonomy.  Words like dependence, subordination & attachment were seen as a sign of weakness.  They were for those incapable of making sound decisions.  When my Lord by his grace revealed himself, I understood and was convicted.  I trusted His work on the cross and believed that when it came to my sin nature, He was the Savior; Romans 5:-8.

 

I believed his word.  I believed in his work.  I believed in Him.  However, He was there only to assist when I was not capable.  I called on Him to resolve tasks that were beyond my abilities.   In my resolve, I viewed myself as capable, gifted, adept and in control.  When the unforeseen arrived my presumptions were shattered. 

That’s when my Savior became Lord.  That’s when He became Sovereign.  That’s when I removed myself, and allotted Him his rightful place.  Slowly I began to reveal who I really was.  I showed Him what I had hidden, my weakness, my hurts.  Daily, I apologized as I expose my faults.  The amazing thing was that He loved me anyway.  He knew all along.  Everything.  Including what I did not want to admit.  Sitting with him; Ephesians 2:6-7; I learned dependence.  I learned attachment.  I learned to love Him. 

In the world in which I live today, dependence is practiced daily, hourly, minute by minute.  The benefit is that I see Him.  I marveled at this goodness.  I participate with amazement.  I’ve become fascinated by His kindness.  Such a loving God!  Praise my Lord! The God of Heaven! May His loving kindness be seen in all the earth!

Copyright 05/2011