Fishing....

Recently, I felt like Peter.  I, like him, had been walking with the Lord for years.  I had seen his miracles, heard his words, believed his truths and met with his grace.   In the Lord, I had found mercy, kindness, friendship and a wonderful love.  Yet I, like Peter found myself wanting to go fishing; John 21:2-3.  Wanting to go back to what I knew, what was safe.  Maybe it was that I had seen myself for who I really am.  One who is lacking.  Going back meant that I would only be required the minimum.  That which was easy and comfortable to give.  Without much dependence on the Lord.  Maybe that was why fishing was so appealing. 

Like with Peter, the Lord came for me; John 21:4-9.  He met me where I was.  He comforted my weary and discouraged soul.  He provided for my needs as he sat with me in total silence; John 21:10-13.  His presence alone was a great source of consolation.  After a while, He asked; Eva, do you love me?  I answered; Yes Lord, I love you.  He asked again; Eva do you love me?  I answered; Yes, Lord you know that I love you.  As I did, my eyes were filled with tears, and my heart was beating rapidly.  He asked me again; Eva do you love me?  I said; yes Lord I love you with all my heart and soul; John 21:15-17.  As I answered, I knew, my life had changed.  I understood what the Lord had just revealed.  It really did not matter, what I lack; Phil 4:19.  Trust and dependence in Him will be all I need.  Fishing was not so appealing any longer.  Now, there is only joy and excitement in my heart.  I am looking forward to what lies ahead....


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