Thursday, August 5, 2010

To See Him.... Al Verle...

I am sitting at a bench in a beautiful garden.  From my view, I am able to look into the middle of the garden and see its large trees.  I have chosen this particular bench because it was surrounded by roses. I love roses! The aroma and the beauty of the colors draw me.  I have never seen such marvelous shades.  The aroma is intoxicating.  I am not in this garden for its beauty though, I've come to see Him.  I have waited all my life for this moment and now its come.  I see him! He is walking slowly from behind the trees toward me.  I can barely contain my excitement.  Should I stand?  At this moment, I can not, for my legs are shaking and I know they will not be able to keep me upright.   Do I look okay?  I hoped he only notices the radiance of my face.   He is coming closer and sitting by me, and I clumsily hugged him.  I can not speak from my sobbing.  It is so good to see him.  To be in his arms.  I stare at his face through my tears, as I try to find the right words.  I want to praise Him.  I want to sing.  For I am finally here, I am seeing him,I am touching him...I am in the arms of my Lord!!! As I examine him, I realize he looks so familiar, I know that I have seen him before; where?


The past few weeks had been a struggle.  My daily routine was to endure, withholding my tears until meals time.  Every day I would pray:  "Lord, if I could  see you...If I were able to cry on your shoulders as you hold me...I would be able to continue...I would be able to bear this burden... Where are you?
In the mornings, as I drove to work, my tears would be streaming down my face.  I chatted with the Lord about my sorrows, my unbearable afflictions while begging him to removed them, and He listened.  After a while, the body would become weary from all the emotions, and silence reigned. As I repaired my makeup, I would become aware of my surroundings.  The morning always looked so beautiful, so hopeful, so new.  The colors of the leaves were changing. There is such beauty in the red, orange and gold colors of fall.  Soon, the trees would be bare.  I would arrive at work, and smile good morning to my co-workers.  Some would notice my sorrow, but no one asked questions.   I usually received lunch invitations during that time, which I willingly accepted.  The mundane, daily routine would commence, and I would forget for a while.  People came and went.  Some sat at my desk, and chatted about their lives, their struggles, their joys.  They would made me laughed, they willingly gave me hugs, they demonstrated their appreciation and I would feel comforted.  Friends would send me emails, and believers words of encouragement as I shared about the Lord's work in my life.  Some would spend their lunch time with me, and as we sat sharing a meal, they listened with concern while my eyes filled with tears.  As I drove home at the end of the day, I was always in awe at the strength the Lord had provided.  At home the children always came to give me hugs of love and support, while my husband prepared the evening meal.  We would enjoy sitting at the table, chatting about our day, and laughing at each other's jokes.  My pets would soon come, to sit on my lap or by my side and as I read, I had peace. The evening will come to an end, and I would find myself in tears and praying for endurance for the following day.


I am back in the garden, being in his arms while looking at his familiar face.  I know him! I have seen Him! Then, I realize that during my days of sorrow, He was always with me.  He never left me. He was so close, He had save my crushed spirit; Psalm 34:18.  He revealed himself through nature, through my pets, in my relationships, in their expressions of love, and in their kindness.  To those who allowed the Lord to be use in comforting me, "I saw the Lord in you!".  I am grateful and honored for such kindness.  Please know that the Lord will remember, and reward you for you did it to him.  Matthew 25:34-40; " Then the King will say to those on his right, Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.  Then the righteous will answer him, Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you? The King will reply, I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me."  Rejoice my friends...Rejoice!!!!


Al Verle...
Llegué a el jardín.  El lugar era amplio y lleno de todo tipo de vegetación.  Caminos verdosos, diversas flores, y en el medio del jardín habian unos árboles grandiosos.  Decidí sentarme en el banquito que estaba rodeado de rosas.  Primero porque su aroma era encantador y la belleza de las rosas, impresionante.  Nunca había visto cosa igual.  Pero yo no estaba visitando el jardín para disfrutar su hermosura.  Yo estaba allí para verle.  Toda mi vida, esperaba este momento.  De lejos, discerní una figura caminando hacia mí.  Era él.  Traté de ponerme de pie, pero mis piernas temblaban y sabía que no me podían sostener.  De momento,me miré a mi misma, y me pregunté;  ¿Estaré vestida apropiadamente?  Espero que él se enfoque en mi rostro pues él, muestra mi corazón.  Al llegar a mi lado, yo me aferré a él torpemente.  Las lágrimas llenaban mis ojos, y mis sollozos se oian a lo largo del jardín.  Yo no podía creerlo.  Estaba aqui, con él.  Yo no dejaba de tocarlo, ni de mirarlo.  Era mi Dios...El Señor de mi vida...¡Que gozo!  Apartandome un poco, lo miré fijamente.  Su rostro era tan familiar.  Yo lo había visto antes.  Pero; ¿Donde?


Todos los días eran iguales.  Llenos de lamento y de dolor.  La rutina diaria era el sobrevivir sin caer en pedazos.  Mis oraciones cada mañana eran las mismas;  "Si solamente estuvieras aquí, yo pudiera sobrellevar esta carga".  "Mi anhelo es el de verte, para llorar en tus hombros mientras me consuelas".  ¿Porque no estás aquí? ¿Porqué no te veo? ¿ En donde estas?  Mientras manejaba al trabajo, las lágrimas eran mis compañeras.  Yo le hablaba al Señor sobre mi angustia, mi dolor, mi sufrimiento y le rogaba que removiera esta carga de mí.  Cuando ya el cuerpo estaba exhausto de tantas emociones, llegaba el silencio.  Mientras me arreglaba el maquillaje, comenzaba a mirar a mi alrededor.  Las mañanas eran hermosas.  Siempre llenas de esperanza.  Era otoño y las hojas en los árboles cambiaban de colores.  Habian llamativos rojos y diferentes tipos de oro y naranja.  Llegaba al trabajo, saludaba a mis compañeros mientras me ocupaba en la rutina del día. Los clientes entraban y salian.  Algunos se sentaban en mi escritorio, a contarme de sus vidas, de sus logros, de sus hijos y de sus alegrías.  La mayoría me abrazaban y agradecian mi esfuerzo en ayudarle y yo me sentía consolada.  Mis amigos me escribian correos electrónicos, para preguntar de mí y los creyentes palabras de apoyo.  Yo enviaba detalles acerca de lo que el Señor estaba haciendo en mi vida.  Algunos compartian su tiempo de almuerzo conmigo, mientras escuchaban mi lamento con preocupación.  Al final del día siempre me encontraba maravillada por la fortaleza que mi Dios había provisto  Mis hijos me esperaban para brindarme palabras de apoyo, cariño y abrazos.  Mi esposo preparaba de comer y mientras cenabamos me contaba de su día, haciéndome reir con sus chistes.  Luego llegaban las mascotas para hacerme compañia mientras leía.  Era un tiempo de descanso.  Eventualmente el dolor regrasaba y volvía al Señor para que me otorgara fortaleza y valor, al pensar en como  iva a enfrentar el próximo día.  


He regresado al jardín.  Siento su abrazo mientras miro su rostro tan familiar.  Yo lo he visto.  Yo lo conozco. Repentinamente, recordé mis días de lamento y de dolor. Y para mi sorpresa él siempre estaba a mi lado.  El nunca se apartó de mi.  Era él a quien yo veía en la naturaleza, en mis mascotas y en todas mis relaciones personales.  El  Salmo 34:18 era cierto.  Mi Dios siempre estaba cerca y salvó mi espirítu contrito.  A todos aquellos que permitieron ser usados por el Señor durante mis días de lamento, sepan que "Yo ví al Señor en ustedes".  Les agradezco su bondad y su gran generosidad.  Saben que al hacer esto por mi, lo hicieron por él y él le dará una gran recompensa.  "Entonces el Rey dirá a los de su derecha: Venid, benditos de mi Padre, heredad el reino preparado para vosotros desde la fundación del mundo. Porque tuve hambre, y me disteis de comer; tuve sed, y me disteis de beber; fui forastero, y me recogisteis; estuve desnudo, y me cubristeis; enfermo, y me visitasteis; en la cárcel, y vinisteis a mí.      Entonces los justos le responderán diciendo: Señor, ¿cuándo te vimos hambriento, y te sustentamos, o sediento, y te dimos de beber?  ¿Y cuándo te vimos forastero, y te recogimos, o desnudo, y te cubrimos? ¿O cuándo te vimos enfermo, o en la cárcel, y vinimos a ti?  Y respondiendo el Rey, les dirá: De cierto os digo que en cuanto lo hicisteis a uno de estos mis hermanos más pequeños, a mí lo hicisteis".  Mateo 25:34-40 ¡Bendecidos sean!


Copyright 08/2010

1 comment:

  1. In the Garden
    Text: C. Austin Miles, 1913 (Jn. 20:11-18)

    I come to the garden alone
    While the dew is still on the roses
    And the voice I hear falling on my ear
    The Son of God discloses.

    And He walks with me, and He talks with me,
    And He tells me I am His own;
    And the joy we share as we tarry there,
    None other has ever known.

    He speaks, and the sound of His voice,
    Is so sweet the birds hush their singing,
    And the melody that He gave to me
    Within my heart is ringing

    I’d stay in the garden with Him
    Though the night around me be falling,
    But He bids me go; through the voice of woe
    His voice to me is calling.

    And He walks with me, and He talks with me,
    And He tells me I am His own;
    And the joy we share as we tarry there,
    None other has ever known.

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